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Dec. 26th, 2023 10:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
korvidaeeI have one more scheduled event for the end of the year. I'm really looking forward to finishing that, then moving onto January 2024 in my calendar and leaving 2023 behind me.
It's strange because this year has been really great in a lot of ways. But despite that, there is this feeling I have that this year has been a "get through it" year, and for the better part of the last 6 months, it's taken all of my will to just...do that. I feel like "things will get better" in the coming year, but...am I just setting myself up for failure even thinking that? I wish I could move on to the new year with no expectations, but I can't help but feel optimistic. (My therapist described me as a positive and hopeful person, characteristics I have never before associated with myself, and that feel...I dunno. Not right).
I am doing my damndest right now to do as little as possible during my winter break. As much as I want to pretend that I'm going to do any of the work I brought home with me, I think I need to prioritize rest when I can get it. At least for now, possibly forever.
It's strange because this year has been really great in a lot of ways. But despite that, there is this feeling I have that this year has been a "get through it" year, and for the better part of the last 6 months, it's taken all of my will to just...do that. I feel like "things will get better" in the coming year, but...am I just setting myself up for failure even thinking that? I wish I could move on to the new year with no expectations, but I can't help but feel optimistic. (My therapist described me as a positive and hopeful person, characteristics I have never before associated with myself, and that feel...I dunno. Not right).
I am doing my damndest right now to do as little as possible during my winter break. As much as I want to pretend that I'm going to do any of the work I brought home with me, I think I need to prioritize rest when I can get it. At least for now, possibly forever.
